Sleepless Abyss Release Me

The undenied has once again begun to harshly show its existence. The nights of wonder & unknown once again haunt and embed in my every thought, my every sight, my every waking & sleeping dream! Behind every tree & stone it lies & waits taunting & whispering! To know would be bliss, to have some sort of grasp on any if it would leave the sleepless nights less Painful & Tiring!
Once again I walk into the Abyss to hope for some kind of revelation, one spark one light is all I hope for to come!
She stands in the Shadows patiently, but growing ever so tired waiting for me to stand by her side!


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